My meditation Story

Posted by Paige Oxlaj on Friday, September 27, 2013 Under: Meditation
When I was a teenager meditation struck me as something that Tibetan monks do in their enclaves far removed from society. It had a sacred almost forbidden aura around it.  I watched documentaries on Buddhist monks and how they could control their body temperature, the movement of their diaphragm, and enter worlds of pure bliss. As I entered the chaotic and hormonal world of teenage-dom, I became envious of their stillness.

So at about 14, with the help of the very enlightened parents of a good friend, I began meditating.  My meditation was astonishingly simple I counted - one, two, one, two, one, two, one, two, one... etc. Once that became easy, I coordinated my breathing so one became an inhale, two an exhale. After a few weeks of that, I slowed down my breathing and then in brief moments, like only a teenager can, I felt I knew everything and nothing. The world was my oyster, but the oyster contained an infinite ocean of ever expanding energy.

Over the years, I have both loved and hated meditation. In times of crisis and stress it became my salvation. It was a brief respite from the outside world that provided a new perspective and a new outlook. In times of joy it was a way to give thanks and to honor the joy I experienced. But I found that responsibilities and obligations, often pulled me from the quiet and the spiritual and drug me into the mundane existence of everyday life. The more I became entrenched in the latest gossip, the newest celebrity and the challenges and joys of relationships, the harder I found it to meditate.  And the less I meditated the more stressed I found myself.  In my mid-twenties I finally, recognized the pattern and returned to daily mediation. 

Meditation offered me balance, it mitigated stress and helped my immune system. It also allowed me to feel that I was part of something bigger than just my immediate environment and as I meditated I embraced the philosophies of non-violence that I had studied in college. In providing me a sense of wholeness and connectedness to everything around me, I began to fully embrace the idea that we are all one. This fundamentally changed how I viewed the world, and for me it, allowed me to find compassion and empathy for people and situations that once caused distress.

Meditation has made me a kinder, gentler person. It has given me that space to process my thoughts and to explore. It has helped me to let go of anger and to heal past hurts. I believe it has also allowed me to have better concentration, better understanding of the whole picture, and has allowed me to become more patient.

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